04.26.12 <3
Love….
It’s a word that is used all the time. A lot of people say it to other people, while not thinking about it. One of those people used to be me. I used to fall for what guys used to give me.. The kisses, The Hugs, The Long Talks, The Way He Would Complement Me, The Way He Would Show Me Off& Just Feeling Wanted & Having A Boyfriend. My stupid ass thought that was Love. It isn’t though…Not even close. I met this guy, He’s 16 almost going to be 17 in May. I Just Turned 15 , On Jan 11, 2013. Yeah.. I’m Young As FUCK! But what i do know, is that the way I felt for him, is something I never felt before. When we first started dating, I got into the relationship way too fast. Honestly, I dated this boy named Justin. Yeah.. He broke my heart..I thought i loved him.. But I just loved him because of everything he said to me.. & everything he told me. Once we stopped kissing, hugging, and not doing the things we used to, i realized he wasn’t the one for me..Honestly..I couldn’t even name 10 things i liked about him..When we dated …he would call me a bitch, fat, ugly, cunt, and it was my own boyfriend! but i still stayed with him..cause i wanted to feel loved..but that wasn’t love..it wasn’t even close. He was just a stupid boy that doesn’t know what hes doing..& me..lol i don’t know what i’m doing half the time..But right now I know what i’m doing with Myles. Myles… when i went through the stuff i went through with Justin, He helped me. He asked if i was okay, and at that time…the only thing everyone else was doing was calling me a slut…I had fake friends that never really were “friends” …but him..even when i hardly talked to him…I knew he was different. He hardly knew me…other than that girl that always seems happy & is in his reading class, but he took time to talk to me..to tell me everything was okay when i went through that. No one else was there for me…I always heard that he was always faithful in a relationship, i heard he cared about everyone, and tries so hard to make people happy. Those people were so right. I started dating him, and at the time maybe for the wrong reason…but when I actually spent more then 6 months with Him…I found out I love him…but not the way that I said I loved the other guys. I’ve dated guys who have abused me..used me..played me..I’m only 15 , but i’ve been through a lot…but i never hurt the guys that hurt me…
but i lost Him….
Yeah..we still talk, were actually really close friends now..haha..
But what I don’t get is … Why did I say I Love You when I didn’t even know what that meant before..
Love… Love is unexplainable.. It can be one of the Best feelings, or even one of the Worst feelings you could ever experience. What do people look for in life..?
Love.
Love is the main thing that EVERYONE wants.
Love is when you stop doing the things you used to do, but STILL LOVE that person . Its loving Every single thing about them, even the bad things.. but not for their looks. For what they truly are. Love never goes away..It stays..forever. It may not be perfect..but its Love. If you really love someone, you wouldn’t get jealous.. You would want them to be happy, before you are. You would want nothing but the best for them… Whether your together or not.
One of the questions Myles Asked me when we first dated was
What is Love?
I couldn’t answer it..cause i didn’t know…
But now..I’m sure I know .
I Love Him. I Love him with my entire heart. I screwed up..I fucked things up with him…. I promised him id never hurt him..
Of course the one guy that treated me the abs best ..Is the person I ended up hurting. Which was the last thing I wanted To Do.
I wrote 100 things I Loved about him before…
& I could go on and on..way more than 100..
If only you knew him… You would fall for him too ..lol
He’s a great guy.
-He’s Understanding.
-He’s Honest.
-He’s Mature
-He’s Trustworthy
-He’s Caring
-He’s so strong
-He’s Smart
-He’s Romantic sometimes haha..
-He’s Unique
-He’s the Most Handsomest Guy I’ve ever met.
Those are only 10 TRUE facts about him…
He knows what he wants in life. He wants to study in Graphic Design & Engineering. He’s Been through A LOT in his life, with family, and other issues with all different people, But He Inspires me. No matter what happens to him, He always puts the people he cares about FIRST. Even though he’s going through so much pain, he forgets about himself, and makes sure other people are nothing but Happy. He’s Completely Honest, & You can trust him with anything you tell him. Yeah, He makes mistakes…but everyone does, but he learns from them. He understands what I go through, and how I feel . He wants the complete best for me.. He doesn’t think of Relationships as a “game” He is one amazing Guy. Anyone, I mean Anyone would be lucky to even know Myles.
I’ve been through soooo much with him..& now..I can say I know a lot about him..
& I can honestly say …
Myles, I Love You …
